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Day 6: The Protagonist and my Antagonist

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Two Beasts beat up against my chest

One I love, and one I hate

The one I feed will dominate

Author unknown:

Who am I in all this? I am all of this and all of this I must sort out. I’m trying to reach a solid foundation here. So my process is introspection and realizing that I am and have been the creator, creating the created relationships. As I become more aware of my patterns of behavior I coast to a stop. I’m learning to change the subject while interacting with others and I can see a change deriving from my new position. I understand I will not be able to stop the mind immediately, as it has had free rein for many years. Nevertheless, I can change my course by directing it as I take self-responsibility for my allowance and acceptances. So I breath, I forgive myself and redirect myself into a new pattern. I am becoming more aware of me in and as the breath, which is quite fascinating to experience, rather soothing and comforting.

As I listen to videos’ read blogs’ they are very supportive in showing me just how separated I have been without an awareness.

I forgive myself for allowing/accepting any forms of judgments which has only separated me from life as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting creations that I created as the creator in separation from who I am. I recognize that all creations exist due to my very own relationship I have in them as the creator. Therefore, I stop by forgiving myself and take responsibility in not allowing or accepting anything that I have created from past memories in judgment/separation as my very own protagonist/antagonist.

I breathe, and  forgive myself in stopping old habits.

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Day 5:The Links in Life

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Day 5: The Links in Life

7 Year Journey to Life

This blog is a shout-out to all that are in their 7 year journey back to life as well as those in the process of taking on their journey. Your blogs have supported and assisted me tremendously to open up and share with myself openly with forgiving myself and becoming self-honest with myself. Thank you bloggers!

We are all connected and individually walking our journey to life to re-birth ourselves for the first time in and as life. I realize the state of interconnectedness and how one individual’s blog supports or bring things home to my own situation or assist by showing me that we share the same/or similar points.

I appreciate all the Desteni Material and Information that is available on the internet. I must admit I have been gathering information and knowledge for some years. I even created my own private personal religion out of Desteni. Religiously, downloading tape after tape, religiously, watched them remembering Bernard’s words “some are in the process of still gathering information and knowledge which is nothing”. There had been many attempts to start though nothing noticeably, supported me and definitely not those who lived with me as I became the knowledge information judge and the more I judge the more anger I created than the guilt and bitterness towards everyone including myself. Fascinating, the catalyst that has made a real turn around has been my blog. I am naked sharing and showing the world myself with an awareness that I am here in all this. This creates an openness to really look at myself honestly without judgments towards me or anyone in my household or anyone in life for that matter. Thank you Desteni! For arriving from the Universe (as one destonian put it). It is the most profound, thought provoking, mind shattering! Yes shattering! I vividly, remember glass breaking inside my head upon hearing my first few desteni tapes.

I forgive myself for not allowing myself to really look at myself as life.

I forgive myself for not allowing myself or accepting myself as capable of being honest with myself.

I forgive myself that I allowed and accepted no regard for my breath. Instead I took it all for granted with no awareness whatsoever.

I forgive myself for not allowing myself to become one with my breath.

I forgive myself that I never allowed myself to communicate with my breath.

I forgive myself that I never allowed or accepted a real relationship to develop with my breath.

I forgive myself that I never allowed or accepted any time in the day to focus on my breath.

I forgive myself that I have spent years without any consideration for my breath as who I am in life as life.

I forgive myself for judging those in my household and those outside of my home. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting judgment to represent me in and as the JUDGE.

I forgive myself that I never allowed or accepted the connection to all life as one as equal.

I forgive myself that I created a religion out of my desteni videos but never followed the support and assistant that was brought forth from the videos because it was much simpler to hear and judge rather than look at myself in that was being presented.

I forgive myself that I allowed myself to become Self-Righteous instead of Self-Honest with what I stood for.

I will direct myself; take responsibility for my actions to make sure in each moment of breath I may stand in self-honesty shamelessly in the awareness and presence of my breath that links us all as One and Equal in life and Breath.

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Day 4: Stand up and Walk Forgive yourself!

I forgive myself that I sabotage my efforts again by allowing and accepting fear to paralyze me as life. I am not fear I am life and life is waiting for me to stand up. Anything less than what’s best for all life can be nothing but delusion.

I realize my journey back to life requires a dedication like nothing I have ever had to face with myself before. I’m naked and alone facing myself in self-honesty. I realize there is no one but me hear looking at myself .  I humble myself right now facing humility as I breath not really finding words in this moment to describe the sadness and shame in seeing what I have allowed and accepted as life. I have hidden, avoided, and closed my eyes to life and life is waiting  for me to wake-up take charge and put the pieces back together.

Earlier today, I had my self-forgiveness statements ready  all nicely edited ready for the “press” (for the public to see that is).  What happen to my beautiful statements I prepared for the world?  I don’t know! But I do know that in this moment of breath I’m here, humbling myself in this moment of breath to myself for myself. I lost myself many years ago and it is going to take time, and patience restoring this old house that Iam. I’m going to take everything out by writing to myself, crying to myself , and forgiving myself because life has allowed me this one opportunity to rebirth myself anew.

It’s cold in my home tonight, we are having an unusual freeze -16 degrees here in Texas, my family asleep.   The wind, rain and ice is beating against the house and windows.  Yet the sounds are creating  a stillness inside me to really look and see what has to be done inside myself. Perhaps that’s where referring to myself as an old house in need of restoration has come from.

I forgive myself for attempting to throw out some self-forgiveness statements to impress the world with look at me I’m forgiving myself see my writings!  Well now I say “look at me” I have no prepared script just me naked and ashamed of myself for allowing and accepting an attempt to impress rather than see me for what I am and what needs to be done here which is to stand up face myself in self- honesty to remove   the rubbish once and for all to prepare myself to become “real” to myself. How ridiculous! it is to pretend, and pretend you are not aware that you are pretending. I truly honor life! Instead of just saying it I will show myself that I do by living it in each moment breath by breath.

I will close here.

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Day 3: Climbing out of the Mire

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting the statements of I don’t know where to start Self Forgiveness. I do know where to start Self Forgiveness right here, right now, in this moment of breath.

I forgive myself for giving my power to mind to defeat and sabotage my efforts in forgiving myself by allowing and accepting defeat rather than standing up and pushing myself to move forward in forgiving myself.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting anxiety to stop me from forgiving myself.

I forgive myself for allowing fear to stop me from writing publicly.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear making writing mistakes

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear and judge myself according to my speaking/writing ability.

I forgive myself for judging myself and others who do not speak or write well.

I forgive myself that I allowed myself to feel lost, and confused in writing out self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and sabotaged myself in standing up for oneness and equality for all life.

I forgive myself that I have allowed racism to justify my judging others.

I forgive myself for participating in judgments towards other lives.

I forgive myself for fear of what others may think of me.

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Day 2: Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted the position of not pushing hard enough to get things done. Instead I allowed and accept my mind to carry me off into my daily routine and pattern.

I forgive myself that I have allow and accepted procrastination to rule instead of taking a directive principle of who I am to push through the deception and excuses that allow me an exit from my responsibility. I see this as a consistent pattern that I have allowed and accepted as who I have become and have manifested as who I am.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted defeat in each and every part of my body which then creates a give up attitude and stance of not starting my journey into life. I will start by writing out what I see taking place in my life as a regular/ daily/ habits as dishonesty in my life of excuses. I will look at this point and inspect it in great detail to direct and correct and break down this pattern that has been allowed to completely run my life effortlessly without a direct stance by applying the tools of forgiveness. I have allowed and accepted guilt and shame to precede ruling over my life in and as me.

I will take full responsibility for myself and direct my life in a way that reflects what best for all as one as equal. I will commit to writing daily as a commitment to myself, for myself, by myself until I get through my journey to life process.

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